College Daze

So last night about 9 pm it occurred to me that Monday would also bring the due date for a Stats project that I haven't even thought about. Which made me feel bad for having a weekend where I didn't even think about school, I cleaned, I had friends over we had a pretty lazy Easter where the biggest thing I did was getting the candy in those little plastic eggs.
It's just so silly to think that this is just like high school. Or grade school. How many times did I do that? Just hurry and get something done quickly so that I get a grade? Lucky for me that I could devote my morning to getting the project done and it all worked out and now it's done. But I wonder if maybe it's just that my life so too crazy for me to devote enough time to my homework. I also was freaking out because I didn't know when my Econ paper was due and maybe it was due today as well or last week. Thank goodness it's not due until the end of the month, but I had no idea! There are only 5 weeks left of school and I'm nervous that my GPA is going to suffer from my grades this term. I'm applying for BS programs after this semester so it's important I keep my GPA high or I won't get in, ugh, but I just can't make myself care because I also have to get the nursery painted and the house cleaned and things organized and diapers bought and taking care of the day to day stuff and like taking care of a 3 year old, a 34 year old and myself. It just seems like I can only focus so much energy on each thing. I planned on being pregnant and taking these classes, so it's definitely my own fault, but I'm just starting to get so burned out, I hope that I can stay committed to getting the these classes done and do them well enough that I can maintain my high GPA so that I can get into my bachelors degree with a good start.
That's what I'm thinking about today. That is all.

Organic = Less Awesomeness

So I bought organic oranges because they were on sale. And I figure they are going to be so magically delicious that I will want to give up normal, growth hormone added oranges.
But these things suck. From beginning to end. You can't peel these suckers, apparently they are missing the chemical that allows the peel and sections to part company. Next they are full of nasty old seeds. I like my oranges seed-free, thank you very much. And the orange flesh isn't even worth it! They aren't juicy and fresh tasting, they are kind like the pith taste has taken over the rest of the fruit.
I for one, will not feel bad at all when I dig into my chemical-laden oranges next time. Matter of fat, when I'm eating the organic ones, I'll be thinking of the chemicals.

Also, it's October, I have a costume in mind. I'm going to make it, with my own two hands. Or rather with the help of my mother-in-laws sowing machine and maybe one or two of her hands.

And if I seriously have to keeping going to classes for another 10 weeks I don't think I can be held responsible for my actions. Group projects are for suckers. Suckers taking these classes. Please give me back managerial accounting, I'll even take governmental accounting if it means I never have to talk to these people ever again! Ahem. I will continue to work diligently to get good grades.

More to Life then Books You Know

So wait. It's September? Holy crap, where did the summer go? We had one really big storm this weekend and apparently it's now autumn. The weather has not recovered and neither have I. I'm sitting here in my hoodie. Isn't it a bit early for hoodies? And I'm still cold anyway so it's not really that helpful, I do have both hoodies here at the office, I could go nuts and wear both of them-at the same time!

Work is slowing down, so I'm thankful for a bit of respite, but the cool breezes are blowing in thoughts of snow. I'm not excited for the winter, but usually here in our region we have a short but lovely fall season. I'm already tasting the candy corn from Halloween. I must be crazy!

It feels like the summer past in flash. No trips, no real summery activities besides the required trip to the local amusement park. Husband was gone for the whole month of July and I think that caused me to not look for anything fun to do outdoors. Still, there were many years I found things to do all summer long.

I remember endless golden summers filled with soccer practices and running through sprinklers. Pictures of me as a little nut brown thing with spindly arms and stringy hair remind me of what it was like having a whole summer to do whatever I wanted. There were berries and cherries to be picked and eaten and games to play. Why can't it be that way again? You know what I miss as well? I miss that going back to school, first day excitement. You had your outfit picked out for weeks and it was brand new, never worn before, because the first day of school was a special day. Finding out who your teacher was and who would be in your class. The butterflies in your stomach the night before trying and failing to fall asleep in the normal amount of time.

Now school starts (taking that one internet class!) and I could care less. I'm not excited, I don't buy new clothes and I don't care who is in my class. Matter of fact, I'm just hoping none of those idiots talk to me. It's not fun anymore. I don't have a clear sense of direction as to what I want to make a career at, I just know it's not this. It's hard to pick a career based on not wanting to do certain things.

But that's not at all a requiem for the lost summer, is it? I need to take some time of and spend it with my family making memories. I hope years from now I don't remember the stupid crap that happens at this job, but I have better things to remember from this time. The smiles on Hayley's face and the time with Husband. I hope those things stay and keep me excited for the next season.

Random acts of Monkeys

I'm not just a mommy blogger, I'm not! I swear! As cute as my little girl is, I do have thoughts independent from her. Juts not that many.
Here at work I've been doing a "summer" schedule where I work 4 ten hour days and get a nice long weekend. Well my peoples, summer is over. It's my last week working the longer but infinitely more awesome schedule. And it's killing me. I would really like to do this all the time, and when things slow down, maybe I can, but things aren't slow right now and that makes me want to poke out my eyes and scramble my brain with a fork. Is that excessive? You don't even want to know.
I'm considering going back to school to get out of this mess. It took me like, 7 years to get my associates degree people. How am I suppose to want to go back to never sleeping or working out because there's no time! and that was all pre-child! I don't think I can handle it. I also don't want to take any lame classes, but it turns out to get accounting degrees you have to take a ton of lame classes, where the only reading requirements aren't going to be page turners. They are going to be text books. I would be cool getting an English degree. But to get one, I also have to have a 3000 level understanding of a foreign language. I thought I could do that with Spanish, I finished up to beginning the 2000 levels, but the whole last month of that class I didn't understand a thing of what was going on and only passed because I had a very lenient teacher who liked me. So I can't get an English degree without knowing a foreign language. Who thought that was a good idea? So I'm screwed the only classes I want to take won't help me get a degree unless I can overcome this language block. Maybe I should try German again, I seemed okay with that in school, but this is freaking college, I don't think I'll be able to get by just because I'm good at homework and tests.
If I could pass Spanish I could study Shakespeare or medieval poetry or women's literature or something cool like that, but then what would I do with it? I wish my idea to be a rockologist is nice, but not something that would probably pay the bills. Maybe Journalism. I'm actually thinking about that right now. So I have to go and think some more.